My first post on this new blog. I have started (and stopped) numerous blogs over the years. But I always stop. Always.
I have let perfectionism control my life. Some people call it Resistance, others call it the Lizard Brain. I just know it is soul sucking and life numbing.
I numb myself a lot. I numb with food or shopping or aimless web surfing. I numb when I am overwhelmed, or in need of connection.
I have spent the last two years thawing myself out. I have reawakened, I recognize my patterns and can now usually alter my reactions.
I am now to move past that and start actively engaging with life again. And that's what I am going to document here.